Thursday, April 24, 2008

Such a Sunny Day for the 24th

Dear Asher,
Here is your horoscope
for Thursday, April 24, 2008:

You're just about the last person who needs to worry about dogmatic ideas, but today you may cling too tightly to some favorite old concept that has just plain worn out is usefulness.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Ads I Love

Dear Danny,

So I'm going to steal a segment from Larke and share with you my new favorite commercial :



It's so good for so many reasons. I love sports, I love inspirational soft music over montagey old footage, I love the voiceover, I love that this ad shows who Michael's been talking to, I love Michael saying, "Maybe I destroyed the game. Or maybe, you're just making excuses."

Maybe I led you to believe my game was built on flash, instead of fire

Asher

...and Into the Wild

A new post for a new story.

Dear Danny,

A few weeks ago at the beginning of Spring Break I came home and I told my parents that I didn't want to be in NY anymore. Then we talked for a long time about what I wanted to do, where I wanted to go, etc. I pitched my few ideas and eventually, we got into some good talks about why I want to go somewhere, etc.

Then, as fate would have it, a night later, my Mom had already rented Sean Penn's Into the Wild. For those of you unfamiliar, it's about a 22 year old who literally runs away from society and works his way from California up to Alaska and eventually dies alone in a bus. The movie was interesting for such a variety of reasons.

1) I'm in the same position as this kid, literally, just graduating (or about to) from college. Just on the base level.
2) I had just talked to my parents about doing a variation of what he did, sans the dying alone part.
3) It was an interesting film as a film, one which did some really great things and some things that I think were absolutely terrible. As a film that is

Right after the movie, my Dad turned to me and asked very sincerely, "So does some of this resinate with you?" My immediate answer was, "Some, but I don't want to run away to Alaska"

The more I've thought about it, the more I've talked about it, I don't feel like I'm running away from anything. I don't feel like I'm running from anything, really. I also don't feel like I'm just "taking time off to travel." I know exactly what I want to do, I know exactly who I am when I do it, and I almost feel too comfortable with that. I could so easily get a job with Ed at Technicolor, or find something at NBC, or some other production company. But I know I can do that in a year. 2 years. Guy Niccoluci over at Late Night told me, "You're young, you can get into this whenever you want. I did when I was 30." The last several years all I've thought in my head was that the sooner I start climbing the ladder the better, but I've come to realize that's not only not true but it's not what I need. I want to feel like I've done something, something for something, anyone else. Writing is great, but why can't I do it while I'm in Africa or India? Why can't I help clean up northern India or Costa Rica, or help refugees in Tibet?

Anyway, I've gotten off track. The point is, in Into the Wild, Emile Hirsch realizes that happiness should be shared and that his decision to run away was one of complete selfishness. Something I learned from the film, something everyone should always keep in mind, I think. I recommend this movie for the reasons I mentioned, and it has a great sound track.

I've rambled I think enough for one night. In closing, I wish I had won the WS in vMLB. I'll be sour about that for a while. Too many injuries.

Asher

If You Stop...

Dear Danny,

So here we go, right.

In the home stretch and the question on everyone's mind for everyone, mostly, not just me is "So what are you doing after you graduate?" Or variations of said question. And I finally have an answer...for the most part. As of now, I know where it's not going to be and where it might be.

Not: NY. I've been in NY for 4 years now and they've been good years. I've learned a lot about myself and I've done plenty of weird and fantastic things. For the record, I bartended, I was a colorist, I work(ed) for a major network TV show, I was almost paid to write a screenplay for a gay fashion designer, I lived in the East Village, West Village and Chinatown, I lived without a home for 5 weeks in the city, I met famous people and some not famous people, I drove in and out of the city and to my count I've had 5,241 bagels.

Needless to say, it's time for me to move on. I don't feel like there's anything left here for me to learn about myself. I also don't feel like I'm really leaving anything behind. There's just nothing left for me here, and if I stay someplace that keeps me stagnant for too long, I lose it. So, it's time to leave. This decision was also easier to come to when I realized I really love the city of NY, so don't worry city, I'll be back.

So where to? LA? Home? Not so much. I don't really want to be around this culture any more. I've been to LA, San Francisco, Oakland, up to Boston, down to Florida. I've been to France, Italy, England, Ireland, Germany...eh. It's all basically the same. When you get right down to it. It's all too familiar for me. If I don't go somewhere challenging, what am I doing.

I'm looking towards different programs, mostly volunteer, in South America (where my parents are leaning) and India (where I'm leaning). Both places offer pretty much what I'm looking for. Something different, something that I can help with. Teaching English or environmental help or well, anything.

Where does this all come from? Why? What would a post be without a poker metaphor. This one might even be readable for the common reader (Larke). So I've been mixing up my play recently between cash games and tournements. Yes, I know Alex, not the best way to go about it. But I've realized something. I'm a much more consistent and overall better tournement player. And yeah Danny, I knew that before, I've known that always. But why? Because there needs to be a purpose to my play. If I sit at a cash game, it becomes much more about the short game because anyone can leave the table at any given moment. The game continues on until, well, you go to sleep or have to leave to return your mom's car by 7:30 AM so she can go to work. the point is, the game has no end point, no purpose. In a tourny, you know it has to end eventually due to the blind level increments. You have to pay attention to every play, every player, every hand. The reads become more important, taking any pot becomes more important, that big bluff can save your life. You know what you're aiming for and you take your shots. There's more of a purpose to it. That's what I feel I've been lacking lately and that's what I'm looking for.

So that's what I'm gonna do. Sign up for a multi table tourny. Out of the US.

Asher

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Tom Fontana

Dear Danny,

I keep teasing a post, and it will come soon, I swear. In the mean time, suffice it to say that Tom Fontana came in and spoke to us today. Normally these speakers are mediocre at best, but Tom actually changed my life, I believe.

That's all for now.

Asher

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

New Motto

I have a new motto I want to live my life by. It shall be released with a new long post about the future of my life. Probably. Maybe not. We'll see.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

I think this is cool

daer dnany,

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too. Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can. i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh?

i tihnk ist rlleay itnrsetnig hwo tihs wrkos

wrod

That Time of Year

Dear Danny,

Here are my next 5 weeks -

Shoot Matt's movie
Organize my movie
Shoot my movie
Rewrite my "Earl" for Thesis
Reweite my "House" for Thesis
Write my 20 page paper about the Horror genre
Graduate

Well, at least I figured out everything else, now it's just time to get it all done.

Ready?

Set?

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Learning and Decisions

Dear Danny,

Today I made a life decision and I learned something about myself.

That is all

Asher

Saturday, March 29, 2008

And sometimes there's a river 8

Dear Danny,

In poker, the decisions you make are often based on statistics or odds. You know how many cards there are in the deck, how many are exposed and you calculate the odds of a card helping or hurting you coming out. Basic odds are 30% chances of a flush hitting, 7% of an Ace coming out, stuff like that. And you can say the same thing Pre Flop. So AK up against JJ, the Jacks are favored 55% to 45%. You take into account the over cards, the straight and flush possibilities, etc.

So in today's session of poker, I missed every flush draw. I only won one coin flip (the 50/50 ones) and was constantly losing to 3 outers, such as AK vs AQ I lost, KQ vs K10 I lost, that sort of stuff.

A lot of you think I overuse the poker metaphor, but it's never more pertinent in life than in this concept. There are odds, there are assumption we can make, but in the end, they're all just odds. All that matters is what cards hit. It doesn't matter that I was a 93% favorite, the 7% hit and that's that. It stings and it makes you wince, but the sign of a real poker player doesn't let it affect his composure. Have a short pain memory and tack one more up to the mean poker Gods.

Because I'm a firm believer that after every downward spiral, after every slump is a redeeming upswing. As long as you keep fighting and keep making the right moves. And keep on playing.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

"I am Dejesus!"

Dear Danny,

Alex, aka Dejesus, aka Hypotron, has inexplicably changed my life tonight. Almost. To an extent. I can't sleep, so I figure, let's get a blog post out and make Danny happy. So earlier today I posted a very whacky poker hand. Lemme run it down for those of you who can't decipher all that poker jargin listed below.

It was a single table tournement, which means that 3 place in the money. There were 4 of us left, and the blinds were getting high. I had 2700 in chips, 3rd place had 2500 and 4th had around 1000. Look below for the exact amounts. But basically, I'm in the big blind and get AK of hearts. The short stack UTG open pushes for about 1000, then the button, the big stack reraises around 1700. THEN SB, 200 less than me, CALLS so what do I do? I have a short stack push, ok any range of ace or low pair, I can beat that. Then a big stack reraise, so ok he probably has a pair he wants to isolate, I'll go against that 50/50 shot. Then the other guy calls, not pushes, calls, meaning...he also has a pocket pair? Hopefully not Kings, so I repushraiseshove...then both calls. Everything is revealed to - UTG K5, Button 44, SB JJ me AK. So basically, I was right. I guess. I had a 30% chance to win out. Flop comes K45, and the rest is history...I came in second. The set of 4s, 15% chance to win, won out and won 1st. So I came in 2nd. Not bad, right?

So I ask Alex what I should have done. And then the world exploded. He didn't know. Alex by the way is basically a professional poker player. He does this everyday. And it bogged him for a while, and basically, it's such a unique and weird position, no one really knows what to do.

Read about it here - http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/showthread.php?t=163573

Anyway, the sheer concept of being a part of a hand that's completely mysterious, now that's something weird. It's like I saw a UFO or I went on this amazing trip where I was kidnapped by natives and somehow escaped. Like I was part of something bigger than I was. It might just turn out to be a poker story, and things like this happen every day...but it doesn't feel like that. At least not now. So in the future, this is going to be my AK experience. My big blind Ace King story. Let it be known.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Hand of the week

Full Tilt Poker Game #5783159395: $10 + $1 Sit & Go (44019783), Table 1 - 120/240 - No Limit Hold'em - 21:35:40 ET - 2008/03/25
Seat 1: Serioussnaps (7,280)
Seat 2: Moe Syslak (2,510)
Seat 7: movieman2g (2,740)
Seat 8: shockin (970)
Moe Syslak posts the small blind of 120
movieman2g posts the big blind of 240
The button is in seat #1
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to movieman2g [Ah Kh]
shockin raises to 970, and is all in
Serioussnaps raises to 1,700
Moe Syslak calls 1,580
movieman2g raises to 2,740, and is all in
Serioussnaps calls 1,040
Moe Syslak calls 810, and is all in
movieman2g shows [Ah Kh]
shockin shows [Kd 5d]
Serioussnaps shows [4c 4d]
Moe Syslak shows [Jd Jh]
*** FLOP *** [2s Kc 4h]
*** TURN *** [2s Kc 4h] [9d]
*** RIVER *** [2s Kc 4h 9d] [7c]
movieman2g shows a pair of Kings
Serioussnaps shows three of a kind, Fours
Serioussnaps wins side pot #2 (460) with three of a kind, Fours
Moe Syslak shows a pair of Jacks
Serioussnaps wins side pot #1 (4,620) with three of a kind, Fours
shockin shows a pair of Kings
Serioussnaps wins the main pot (3,880) with three of a kind, Fours
shockin is sitting out
shockin stands up
Moe Syslak stands up
movieman2g stands up
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 8,960 Main pot 3,880. Side pot 1 4,620. Side pot 2 460. | Rake 0
Board: [2s Kc 4h 9d 7c]
Seat 1: Serioussnaps (button) showed [4c 4d] and won (8,960) with three of a kind, Fours
Seat 2: Moe Syslak (small blind) showed [Jd Jh] and lost with a pair of Jacks
Seat 7: movieman2g (big blind) showed [Ah Kh] and lost with a pair of Kings
Seat 8: shockin showed [Kd 5d] and lost with a pair of Kings

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

test bracket

Click the Bracket Below to Enter or Update Your Bracket Picks

North Carolina
Play-in Winner
Indiana
Arkansas
Notre Dame
George Mason
Washington St.
Winthrop
Oklahoma
Saint Josephs
Louisville
Boise St.
Butler
South Alabama
Tennessee
American
North Carolina
Indiana
George Mason
Washington St.
Oklahoma
Louisville
Butler
Tennessee
North Carolina
Washington St.
Louisville
Tennessee
North Carolina
Tennessee
North Carolina
Memphis
UT-Arlington
Mississippi St.
Oregon
Michigan St.
Temple
Pittsburgh
Oral Roberts
Marquette
Kentucky
Stanford
Cornell
Miami (Fla.)
St. Marys (Ca.)
Texas
Austin Peay
Memphis
Mississippi St.
Michigan St.
Pittsburgh
Kentucky
Stanford
St. Marys (Ca.)
Texas
Memphis
Pittsburgh
Kentucky
Texas
Pittsburgh
Texas
Texas
Kansas
Portland St.
UNLV
Kent St.
Clemson
Villanova
Vanderbilt
Siena
USC
Kansas St.
Wisconsin
CS Fullerton
Gonzaga
Davidson
Georgetown
UMBC
Kansas
UNLV
Clemson
Vanderbilt
USC
Wisconsin
Gonzaga
Georgetown
Kansas
Clemson
USC
Georgetown
Clemson
Georgetown
Georgetown
UCLA
Mississippi Val.
BYU
Texas A&M
Drake
Western Ky.
Connecticut
San Diego
Purdue
Baylor
Xavier
Georgia
West Virginia
Arizona
Duke
Belmont
UCLA
BYU
Drake
Connecticut
Purdue
Georgia
Arizona
Duke
UCLA
Drake
Georgia
Duke
UCLA
Duke
UCLA
North Carolina
Texas
North Carolina



There are palm trees here

Dear Danny,

Sorry for not updating in a long long time. I do believe this is my first post of the new year. And it's March. A lot has been going on that I will update on periodically throughout the coming weeks. Right now I'm watching the produce guys unload grocery products into the deli next to Linda's apartment. I'll be out here for the rest of Spring break, so expect a long updated post early next week.

Until then, a short poker story. I was playing a $5 SnG with Danny and it had the most ups and downs we've ever seen in a measly little $5 SnG. At one point, with the blinds at, I believe, 150/300, there were 4 of us left. Me, Danny, and this other clown all had around 1500, while the other guy had around 6000. Somehow Danny survived to 3rd, and then it was me and this other goon. Blinds went to 200/400 and I had, I'm not kidding, 1300 in chips. Literally, every hand for the next, I'd say 7 hands, I pushed. And this goon folded, I'd say 6 of them. Then I doubled up, and suddenly had the chip lead. Then twice in a row when I had him all in and had a far better hand, he sucked out, putting me back to around 2000 in chips. Needless to say, I eventually caught back up and won. It was the most satisfying 17 dollars I've ever made.

Anyway, more later. Till then, push those aces and bet your draws, you never know when you're gonna suck out

Asher

Monday, December 31, 2007

Old Tradition

Dear 2007,

I've been going through my day planner of you for a few days now trying to figure out just exactly what you've been to me. Looking back on some of these past entries, you're not really a bad year, not really a great year. More good than bad though. I'm pretty sure I've figured out the analogy though. Since sports are prevalent in this blog, football is a good one.

2007, you're like the new young quarterback drafted in the 1st round right after the veteran quarterback just retired. Like a John Elway or eventually Brett Favre. So you could be compared to a Jay Cutler or an Aaron Rodgers or even a Luke McCowan, the eventual starter for the Bucs. There are times that you've been great and times that you've shown your rookie status. You took a team from a 3-13 record (2006 was more of a 1-15 status) and you've gotten the team to 9-7. But the playoff picture is still unclear as of now. All that we know is that you helped the team out, got the trust instilled in the fans, but now you have to step up and prove yourself to the rest of the team and the opponents.

In 2007 I did some amazing things. If you would have told me that in the same year I will have premiered a feature movie, rode a camel, shot a short film in a bug infested pool hall, worked in a candy packing factory, lived homeless in NY for 5 weeks, started bar tending and learned enough economics to make conversation, I would have called you crazy. There were some great times, there were some hectic times, there were some times I didn't think I'd make it through. I've made some amazing friends that I know I'll never lose, and at the same time lost some friends I never thought I would lose. But since the gain outweighs the loss, we're not in a deficit (see what I've learned Danny) and in a slight surplus. In football terms it means we're at 9-7 and possibly in the playoffs. Even so, you needed to gain some experience 2007, and you've helped me do that.

2008 will be another interested graduating year that I have no idea where it will go. Hopefully the QB can stay healthy and we can make some good off season acquisitions. I'm hopeful.

Sincerely,

Asher


Past logs :

2004
2005
2006

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Something I've Learned

I should never live by myself. I've realized the only reason I've cleaned up at all the past day was because I know my room mates are coming home soon. If not for that, it may never have gotten done. So room mates, thank you for your unknowing motivation.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

I Haven't Much to Do

I've been alone in my apartment since last Monday and I'm having a hard time finding things to do. Walking around naked only is so entertaining. I bought myself some new video games, got some new movies from Netflix, my parents came to visit, got to spend some good time with my brother, and now that everyone sans Alex and Kamron have gone home for break, it's back to looking for things to do.

For example --

Two nights ago I watched Jurassic Park 1 and 2. I forgot how great 2 really is. Toby from the West Wing is there, Vince Vaughn is there, Kobayashi from Usual Suspects is there and Jeff Goldblum is quirky as ever even if he does have an unexplained Black daughter.

Then last night I actually met up with Alex and Kamron, but once they went home, I had nothing to do. Queue Alien and Aliens. I skipped a fair amount of the exposition, cause come on, why else do you watch them over and over again. It was also to gear up for today --

Today was a day I have been anticipating for over a year. Alien v Predator Requiem. To say the first movie was a debacle would be an under statement. I've discussed why this movie would be great. And it didn't disappoint. I don't think. It was good. I just think I prepped it too much in my head. I'm going to see it again some time this week to see how good it really was. It might have been trying to set up too many characters, I'm not sure yet.

Either way, before that I watched Gravedancers, and when I got home I popped in some Phantasm. Phantasm is an interesting movie phenomenon. The first one was made in 1979 by a young film maker who was really into the indie scene. Then he didn't do anything for a couple years, tried a German horror movie then did nothing until 1988 with Phantasm 2. Then a few years later with 3. And 4. 5 is coming out next year, production is on hold because of the strike.

But he doesn't branch out. Neither do his actors, of which he uses the same ones in each movie. Yeah, over 30 years and still using the same guys. Sort of a horror anomoly. He's obviously talented, Phantasm is a great horror movie and still stands the test of time, for the most part, but he just never expanded out. Oh well. Phantasm 5 should be good, look for it sometime in the summer/late 2008.

So now I'm just waiting until I'm tired to fall asleep and see what I'm going to watch tomorrow.

I wonder when my room mates are coming home...

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Another one bites the dust

http://joblo.com/alba-is-pregnant

So that eliminates her from my potential future wife list. Next up on the list : Newly added Ellen Page.

Monday, December 10, 2007

Sometimes the 10th passes by and I don't notice. And sometimes I do notice.


Happy 21st Alex

Thursday, December 06, 2007

To Do Lists

Dear Danny,

It's that time of year. It's crunch time. I have the following to finish in the next 2 weeks :

- Revise feature screenplay
- Revise Earl spec script
- 2 Africa Papers (this involves reading about 2 months worth of readings)
- Pass Economy test. Key word : Pass
- Finish Knock Twice web site, complete with Flash animation
- Figure out life
- Outline other specs
- Outline next feature
- Obtain internship

Right now, here's the progress :

- Finished 1st draft of screenplay. Not complete until Christophe reads it, as it follows the Travis character.
- Finished draft of Earl spec, need some work.
- I think I understand economic theories. Weird huh.
- Try this : For a temp site I think it'll be done in a few weeks, but that's a template for now

Hannukah started the other night, it's not a real holiday, but it's a nice one. All the symbolism of something like Passover, but none of the food restrictions. I like it alright.

That's all for now. Bucs are almost playoff bound, go John Gruden. Let's hoping I make it through the next 2 weeks.

- Asher